Meeting My Higher Self

My dreams come in three different flavors; Regular, Precognitive and Enlightening. Regular dreams are the by-products of my mind organizing itself and assimilating the information accumulated that day. Precognitive dreams are glimpses into the future. I’ve had several of these throughout my life and I recognize them by an acute sense of Déjà vu coupled with memories of the dream when they come true. Enlightening dreams are lessons that I need to learn. Since I began my pursuit into Lucid Dreaming, I’ve had three of this kind including last night’s dream.

Last night I dreamed that I met my higher self. The whole purpose of pursuing Lucid Dreaming was to contact my higher self and talk with her about “stuff”. I was stressed out all last week and unable to focus on remembering and recording my dreams. By Saturday some of that stress had been alleviated although a good amount of anxiety remained. It is this lingering fear, I believe, which prompted this spontaneous connection. Since I was not lucid, I was not able to communicate with her like I wanted. Instead she took the opportunity to teach me something.

In the dream I had “died” though I don’t remember how. I just found myself standing in an open space surrounded by a lot of light with a sense of having “left” my life on Earth. I was standing side by side with three other women who had also “died”. Directly in front of us were our higher selves. My higher self was black, of course, but she had short natural hair. She was full figured, like I am, but much, much smaller and she gave off a very happy and very wise energy. I realize now that the image she presented was just a façade so that I would recognize her as my higher self.

She said something that I don’t remember but I got the impression that it was time to “move on” so I started to walk away. She stopped me by saying “Just a minute” and grabbed me by my shoulders. She smiled and shook her head in that way that people do when they can’t believe you just did something. Then she pulled me into herself.

All of my life experiences here on Earth became a part of her and, in turn, I “knew” some things about her. She had been around a long time and had had many life experiences of which my life here on Earth was just “one more”. This was confirmed when after a moment I found myself back on Earth in what felt like the future. Only in this new life, I was a white woman and a police detective investigating the drowning of a little girl.

Like all of the Enlightening dreams I’ve had before, this one presented several meaningful lessons. First, it confirmed for me that we are not segregated after we die like the popular religion states. When we are done with this experience we are merged back into our true self and move on to experience other things. This is similar to reading a book. You don’t go to “heaven” or “hell” after reading the book. Rather after leaving the book world you return to yourself, absorb the lessons you learned from the book and then go on to the next one.

Secondly, the dream made me realize that “I” am not “Arwen”. Just like my pinky finger does not define my body but contributes to the totality of my physical being, the life I live now is only a part of who “I” am and contributes to my growth as a spiritual being. In fact picking apart this dream further, I’ve come to believe that we are similar to a set of Matryoshka dolls. When we are finished with this life, we will be absorbed into our “higher” selves and when our higher self has reached the limits of its growth, it will be absorbed into a “greater” self and so on and so forth until the level of the Source that encompasses us all has been reached.

I was experiencing a lot of fear last week and this dream has gone a long way towards putting things into perspective and relieving that. I believe that fear is caused by losing a sense of our true selves and becoming attached to the illusory things that define who we are in this imaginary world. It is like playing that popular online game Second Life. Instead of maintaining an objective point of view, we become immersed in the character and forget that it is only an avatar in a game that has no meaning outside of itself.

While we should respect ourselves and strive to make ourselves the best that we can be, we need to recognize that fear is a sign that we have become too immersed in the game and that we need to take a step back and remember that we are the Source allowing itself to experience what it is like to be a limited being. Not the other way around.